Sometimes, we do have the tendency to listen to songs we can relate to at the time we are feeling the same way.  I do that, too but oftentimes feel that I should listen to something with a more upbeat feel or tone because I think that the more I listen to something with a slower melody, it will make me feel more depressed or sad, or it may even make me cry which would make things worse and I hate that. 

I believe that I am a (hopeless) romantic inside but it just doesn't really show. Para kasing hindi bagay sa personality ko that everyone else sees and that it makes one seem vulnerable. In the same way that I like wedding items, I like the kind of music that makes you feel good and warm inside.  Mind you though, I do have CDs like the Art of Letting Go and Closer to Home.  Good music but makes one want to kill himself after listening to all of the songs in the CD. Hahahaha.  I didn't buy them at the time I was depressed or sad.  I just liked the music, that's all.  At mahilig talaga ko dun... if you can only see how many song books and CDs and tapes I have. hehehhe.

The music I listen to now is more about hope and something to think of in the future.  Maybe there is something wrong with me, that there is something that needs to be fixed (hence, Coldplay and Fix You - September 8 entry).  I have a number of could-have-been relationships of late where everything was good but a third party came along and it just stopped short.  The women were more aggressive and I guess I was passive.  What could I do?  Maybe there was something I could have done but I didn't know what; maybe I was not sure of what I wanted or if what I felt was enough to make the relationship work. Dapat bang ako nanligaw, este nag-initiate ng relationship?  (If you're nodding, ok ka lang?! pbfftht.) Can you tell me what is wrong with me or what I'd need to fix? I'd sure love to hear it if you can give me your thoughts on this.

With that thought, let me leave you with this weeks National Anthem, A Little Bit by MYMP: