A friend and I recently did some catching up online and of course, along with the usual hi's and hello's, there's always this question they ask me and that is, do you have a boyfriend now?  And of course, my answer would be, what's that?  Ano ba, issue ba yun? Siempre naman, wala; still looking, etc. At ang friendship sabi baka naman in denial ka lang?  Sino ba yung lagi mong kausap? Oh, shit - no. Not that.  Ayan, deny agad. Ano bah? 

I guess sometimes, you can't help but deny things in your life because you are thinking that you will be losing a good friend or companion.  It would help if they would accept friendship in return.  But what hurts most is the thought that your feelings will not be reciprocated.  That will be one terribly messy heart you got there...

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might call you from my heart

But it might be a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Are gonna come out anyway

Just like this song from James Morrison that I have posted a few days ago called "You Give Me Something." I guess I'm afraid to find out that I'm all worked out for nothing or that I'm in too deep but never had the chance to let the person know or that it took me too long to tell the person that I, in turn, lose him. 

Let me go ahead and play the waiting game for now...

I've spent too much time
Waiting for you in vain
I can't hear your voice
Although I call your name
I can't go on but I still
hang on just the same

I've spent endless nights
Crying you name out loud
But still remain
Alone in an empty crowd
As time goes on I realize
you'll never change

I say a prayer
I count the hours
I hear a voice but it's not yours
I count the score
I can't go on playing the waiting game

If you should ever change your mind
I'll be there just call my name
Until then I'll be
playing the waiting game

I've waited too long
Wishing my life away
Convincing myself
Tomorrow you'd change your ways
I can't go on but I still
hang on just the same

I say a prayer
I count the hours
I hear a voice but it's not yours
I count the score
I can't go on playing the waiting game

All you left me with emptiness
Now everyday seems the same
You've gone but I'm still
playing the waiting game

If you should ever change your mind
I'll be there just call my name
Until then I'll be
playing the waiting game

I've waited too long for you
to change your ways
Playing the waiting game
All you left me with emptiness
Now everyday seems the same
You've gone but I'm still
playing the waiting game

If you should ever change your mind
I'll be there just call my name
Until then I'll be
playing the waiting game

It's been a while since I last blogged and haven't shared some of the high and lowlights of the past couple of months.  I've been out and about recently and have gone to work on Christmas and New Year's and have got a number of pictures to show you but I don't have a way right now to show 'em to you as my Photobucket account is full.  I will try to put them together soon.  Right now I just want to write

I've been busy at work. Well, not that busy but have tried to be "honda" most of the time.  It's tiring but of course, worth it if you get to finish stuff on time.  I've also made some new friends and connected with some old ones.  My birthday last year was the most pleasant in years - I spent it at work and with family over the weekend. Christmas and New Year's was spent at work - yes, eventhough we didn't have agents to listen to or coach.  Bummer.  Christmas and the New Year also gave me time to connect with friends old and new.  That felt good.

I went out for a bit - my usual break and got a DS Lite and my trusty Canon 860 digicam - Wooo hooo!  Found some really good buys at Tung Chung yet was not able to go the Ngong Ping 360 ride - it was closed. Sad but got to go to Disneyland instead.  I miss HK already

And no, I haven't been spending as much as I used to on my phone bill but recently, very recently I spent almost seven hours on the phone with a friend, talking about anything and everything under the sun.  I even remember saying that I need to go to work at 8AM, yet the chatter went on and I went to sleep around 7AM.  Oh, I didn't have a shift since it was a Sunday but I needed to finish some reports so I don't have to worry about them on Monday.  My left ear did hurt, physically - I haven't chattered for more than two hours on the phone for ages.  Last time I did that I think was last September, when I took calls for over 3 hours.  Other than that, I don't remember if there has been anything that long.  Wonderful thing was the vast knowledge, whether personal or otherwise, that I have acquired at that time.  Well, thing was, I didn't really want to put the phone down at that time yet I had to.  I can still recall parts of the conversation and where I was seated and facing at the same time - as well as remembering looking out of the window and seeing light shine through.  To think that we started at around 1AM!  A friend was teasing, asking if the caller was a potential beau.  Nooo, it's not what you think.  It was just fun trying to keep awake and talk about everything we can think of, whether it was about work or something we saw on the tube or a thought we couldn't help but talk about.  That was nice and it is good to discover someone who shares the same interest or thought on things.  We kept saying that it may have been because of our age - the thinking and ideas. But at one point of our lives, I despised that person. That person knows as I gave my POV.  It was well accepted and it felt good after that.  I've been wanting to say it for ages but held off till I felt it was a good time.

Oh and I wanted to share this song, it's called Angels Brought Me Here by Guy Sebastian.  It's Lloyd's favorite and I like it, too.  After that you'll see, You Give Me Something by James Morrison.

Angels Brought Me Here"

It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

"You Give Me Something"

You only stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
But now I've gotten in too deep

For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart

You only waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean

I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might call you from my heart

But it might be a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Are gonna come out anyway

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart

Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

I haven't been to a gig for ages and this was one opportunity I wasn't going to miss.  My college classmate, Melody del Mundo, came home from the US for 10 days to launch their (Stella's Notch) debut album in Manila. It was also one time where me and my college classmates can get together for a good cause.  I actually bought 3 CDs for friends and myself!

Here I am with Melody, having my CD signed...

With Jen Ty

with college classmates Glad, Melody, Jen and Chipmunk, este Alvin

with Bhava Mitra of Kadangyan

Before all that, we had dinner at Mary Grace at Serendra before proceeding to Mag:Net to watch Melody.  A number of bands performed like Pin-Up Girls and Kadangyan (hence the picture).  It was an enjoyable night and really enjoyed listening to Evil Jill.  Kadangyan had a different sound and we thought they were really good.  I enjoyed the night... and went to work afterwards. Yessss, I had work that night but still pursued the gimik. Galeng!

  And now, a word from our sponsor... "Smile. Tomorrow may be worse."

I was chatting with a friend not so many hours ago and along the way, was told that he gave me the cold shoulder because I was chatting with someone he was not too keen that I communicate with.  I told him that I wouldn't, in any way, say or do anything that would hurt or put him in a bad light.  He then told me that I intimidated him and asked why. He answered he didn't know. Oh boy, here is another person telling me I'm intimidating.  Do I have to "Fix" me again?  Arrgggh!

My beloved Glorietta was bombed last Friday and no I don't believe in their reports as my dad was there and he saw the debris and all the commotion.  Thank God he was in another location at that time; else, he would have been in the center of everything.

I went to the mall yesterday but it was closed due to a fire on the other side of the mall. To prevent casualties and the lot, the management decided to close it.  Only National Bookstore was open.  I wanted to take pictures but I couldn't bear to see it in a devastated state.

It broke my heart to hear what had happened. But it also frightened me in a way.  You see, I was going to go to that specific area last Friday but a friend texted me and told me about the opening of the new Sennheiser store along Buendia.  At the last minute, I decided to go to the Sennheiser store instead of Glorietta.  I thanked my friend who told me about it.  If it weren't for that message, I would have been there myself.

It's the month of October.  What does it remind you of?  Lloyd's birthday, Halloween and it's almost Christmas - to us Filipinos.  I don't like Christmas in a sense that it reminds me of dates past - unhappy, forgettable moments.  I hope this year, it will be good, if not better.  I hope I get to celebrate the occasion with my friends and there will be no conflicts with the family which I hate so much.  I hope they let me have the upper hand this time... I choose, you lose! Bwahahahaha!

More to write soon and again, with pictures.

Based on the previous post:  We're okay.  Binabati nya na ko ulit.  Whew!

I keep saying/texting the wrong things?  And this always happens when I'm giddy or excited to talk to a person.  What the hell is wrong with me? Ayan, naiinis na naman yung friend ko sa 'kin - medyo pikon pa naman yun... and this is for the second time in a span of one month! Arrgh!  Ayaw ko na tuloy mag txt.  I guess I'll be going back to the old replies such as "k", "tnx", "good" and "np" and questions like "u?"

It's raining and all the  more I feel sad and blue.  And I think I'm coming down with something... flu or whatever.  But gladly, I got the flu shot recently so baka naman ndi matuloy.

Aarrrgggghhhh!!!!  It's so frustrating when that person is mad at me!!! Waaaaaahhhh!!!!

Bumabagyo sa Baguio hahahaha  Yep, I was there at that time.  Didn't mind it really.  I just enjoyed the very nice, very coool weather.  I hardly wore my jacket except at night and when it was raining.  We'll, let me tell you, in photos of my trip...

     Where I stayed - Microtel Baguio

    First meal of the day at 50s diner. Yum.

  While visiting my friend "The Rebel DJ" at Z Radio 98.7 booth, reading a dedication.

 Night cap at Mocha Blends at the Caltex Gas Station near Microtel.

     Cordillera Coffee- Fish n Chips with Benguet Iced Tea.  Yes, it was cold but I still removed my jacket, enjoyed the view and drank my Iced Tea.  Good tea and coffee, local and pretty cheap.

 One of my taxis

 Inside the Deluxe Bus

No pasalubongs.. except for family - Good Sheperd Products - sends kids from the Cordlillera Region to school.  Siempre, mag promote ba ng product? HHAHAHA Sige, sagarin na natin... while in Baguio, listen to Z Radio 98.7, the Ultimate Radio Experience.

More wento later.. tired na.  Time to go to work in a couple of hours.

New supervisor, new process, new stations... We're making progress here.  Hope it will turn out really well.  It is a tedious process though, if you think about it. Having to face the reps day in and out, their questions and comments.  We now have weekly team meetings and oh, we are going to have one-on-ones now.  Tee hee hee.

Well, anyway, plans are underway to go up the mountain.  I've been hounded by it since last year and this month, it really got to me finally and you know how?  Went malling and saw good silver as well as furniture and guess where they're from?  You got it.  Just last weekend, I went to Megamall and visited a Christmas Decor exhibit, and things again pointed in that direction and this was even on tv! Turned the TV on last Saturday and saw this show on LivingAsia featuring PNKY which turned out to be in the mountains.  Again on Sunday, I said I'd watch the latest Rated Oh! and want to get a glimpse of the audition - in Baguio. Darn. So now, I got my things packed, my money ready.  Hope I got all the things I need and enough money.  Pasalubong daw - walis, ube jam, strawberry jam.  I think my bags gonna be full and all my money, lost. Oh well.  My companions will be staying at the hotel except for lunch and dinner and food time in between.  And I, will be out and about the city.  I'm still not sure what shoes or sandals to wear.  I need something comfy but cute, which I don't think I have.

I'm also looking forward to seeing an old friend while I'm there.  I hope we get to spend a lot of time together catching up on things.  Kulang ang isang tasang kape.  I better find a cheap coffee place...

More pictures... soon.

Happy Birthday Belle!!!

It was Belle's birthday last Saturday and we got to see each other again and of course, she brought along my adorable inaanak, Alessi:

Haba na ng hair nya noh?  Hindeee, hair ni Ninang Tin yun...

And here are some other photos I took with my trusty Samsung phone:

It was great to see old friends again and have breakfast.  Talagang taga call centre kami with the time we meet and the food we eat. hehehe.

And what else did I do that day?  Stayed at the ofc till 4! Hahaha.  It was sooo difficult to send the reports since there were a lot of supes to send it to!  Pero ok lang.  I didn't mind staying.  I didn't have anything planned that night except to shop for a few items here and there.

Sunday, I went to the Karl Edwards Bazaar at the Fort and had lunch at Gourdo's.  Tapos, proceeded to Market, Market and I got the teammates the usual stuff - Paper Clay Art!

There's a lot on my mind, that I couldn't share just yet.  Soon.  It's a little complicated so I'm keeping mum for now.  Ta-tah!

It's the weekend and I have work in a few hours. Pathetic.  Sun-Mon off. Oh well, that's life.  Next weeks a new work week and a new schedule is underway.  We'll also be meeting our new supervisor.  Lotsa new things huh?

I've recently been working on some projects that I like and still working on one which involves both print and web - hopefully I'll get to finish them soon and post pics or links to share with you.  I just need a little inspiration...  now where was that guy I was talking to for hours and hours at a time, hmm?

Anyway, a little work here, a little of the projects there and I'm pre-occupied.  Although not all my thoughts are on the project or work.  That Sergio Mendez song has been running in my head called "Take This Love" and then came "Fix You" by Coldplay:

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse?

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worst?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you